Beta #3: Not Great

Today’s beta did not double. It did go up, so I’m trying not to panic.

Now, if I ignore the second beta and use all the numbers from my first and third, the numbers look much better.

And so I have to go back AGAIN on Friday, and until then I will sit here, mostly terrified.

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Beta #3: Not Great

Beta #2

My HCG increased from 216 to 870! 

I go back again for a third draw on Wednesday, and if everything looks ok, our first ultrasound would be towards the end of next week (just in time for Mother’s Day!)

Beta #2

Beta Day


9dp5dt / 11dp5dt / 13dp5dt

Just got the call from my RE and my Beta was 216!

I’m a little paranoid because 1) when I was pregnant the last time my first Beta was in the 400s, and 2) they told me not to come back until MONDAY for my second draw.

Plus, this is our first cycle back. I know plenty of people who have luck the first time, but that was never, ever, us. So I’m having a hard time believing this could be the real thing. 

Beta Day

Officially Insane

Next Thursday feels like an eternity from now.

I bought some dollar store tests, which I’ve never used before but I hear they’re pretty sensitive and you can’t beat the price that’s for sure.

I’ve decided testing at home by day 8 is probably the longest I’ll last.

That’s Saturday.

I wish it was Saturday.

Officially Insane

Oh God, I Forgot What This Was Like

It’s been three-ish years since my last embryo transfer, and I’ve totally forgotten the insanity that follows. 

Did it work?! Of course it worked! No, it didn’t work. If it didn’t work, we’ll just try again. If it did work, what if I lose it? What if I have a baby on Christmas Day?! If it worked, when will we tell people? 

When can I start testing? Should I test early? I don’t want to get my hopes up. But I want to manage expectations. 

Last time I had tiny little twinges and pulls. When did those start? Should they have started by now? Oh god, it didn’t work. But I took naps yesterday and today, so maybe it did work. 

We should have transferred two. No, one was better. Twins scare the bejesus out of me. Oh, but twins would mean we were done-done. But it would also mean I’d be a crazy person for like four years. 

Was that a twinge?! Or was it gas? Why don’t my boobs hurt yet? It didn’t work. But they say every pregnancy is different, maybe I won’t feel pregnant at all, but it did work!

It’s been two days. 

Oh God, I Forgot What This Was Like