Here We Go Again

After another uneventful week, I went to the bathroom today and saw bright red blood. 

Last time, it wasn’t this bad. It was like, barely pink-tinged toilet paper. 

This was bright red, and heavy, with some little clots.  

The good news? I’m not cramping (although my back IS killing me) and it seems to be slowing down. I already had another ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning, and my clinic said unless it gets super heavy, just keep taking it easy. 

I’ve had losses in the past, and this doesn’t feel like they did, but obviously I’m anxious to see what’s happening tomorrow. Please keep your fingers crossed for us. 

Here We Go Again

I Knew It

Yesterday — Mother’s Day — I just felt off. 

We told my in-laws about the pregnancy, and later my grandmother and immediate family. 

And then I went to the bathroom, and saw blood. 

I knew that would happen. I knew I would tell people, and that would happen. 

My back had been bothering me all day, like it would before I got my period. I was never really crampy, I felt more irritated than anything else. 

I left Mother’s Day dinner and came home and laid down. The spotting never got any worse, and I haven’t had any yet today, so that’s a relief. 

I know that there’s a lot going on in there, and bleeding is not uncommon (I had little bout of spotting with my last pregnancy as well), and some of the medication I’m taking will make any bleeding I have look worse than it really is. 

I also know, if something bad is going to happen, it’s just going to happen. There’s nothing I can do or could have done differently. 

My next ultrasound is scheduled for Friday when I’ll be 7w5d. I’m waiting to hear back from my nurse to see if they want me in sooner. 

And so we wait. 

I Knew It